In a good place.....

It is really amazing how great my life is right now. Even though I feel like I am about to lose complete control of everything, I feel great. It has been a wild ride since my surgery. Getting back to work was a blessing and it made me realize how much I missed it.

On June 30th my Dad broke his leg real bad at work. He was doing a exterior door check on one of the capital building and fell off a small retaining wall. Really messed up his tibia had to have several surgeries to try and correct it. He is still out of work till this day. I was able to go up to Minnesota and help take care of him a little bit this summer.

On July 5th my uncle Dave decided to take his own life. It really hit me hard and very close to home. I too was at that state of mind when I was 17. I wanted my life to end and even tried to take my own life. He was my Dad's younger brother the baby of the seven kids. Everyone has tried to figure out why he did it, but I doubt we will ever know exactly why. The weird thing is that he left all of his money to us nephews and nieces. There are fourteen of us who are going to receive a bunch of money. It will change my life forever. Not only will I have to get used to not having my uncle Dave around, but I won't be in debt any longer. God do I miss him and only wish I had told him how much I loved him and how much he meant to me in my life. My favorite memory I have of uncle Dave was July 5, 2005. We went tubing down the St. Croix river and I had floated a keg o beer along. I made it my personal mission to finish it by the time we hit the bank. Needless to say I failed and was so drunk I couldn't stand up. Dave came over and put his arm around me and told me everything would be just fine. He was and will always be a hero to me.

Two weeks ago I went to some spiritual training. It was three long days of some intense stuff. The entire week before my whole body was tingling and going through changes. I quit smoking and am still off the cigs. It was a wonderful experience and I am really glad I did it. I got to meet some really cool people and learn some very interesting things.

Life is great and I am very blessed to be surrounded by so many wonderful people in my life. Birmingham has been a blessing for me. I made the right decision to stay. I feel like I am home here in Alabama. Who would have thunk it?